Sometimes I'll get to browsing blogs. I'll find one about an amazing photographer, or an up and coming Broadway star, or someone who is way more fashionable than I'll ever be, and others who seem so much happier than me. And I'll find myself wishing for something different than what I have been given in life. I start wondering what if? What if I had really tried to reach that goal of singing on Broadway? What if I could dance? What if I had a big beautiful home like so-and-so? What if I could travel all over the world? What if.....?
But it's not long before my feverish little boy calls for his mommy, or my sweet husband wants to show me a fly he has tied, or one of my amazing sisters calls just to chat, and immediately all those what if's melt away, and another set follows close behind....
what if I wasn't married to my husband who tells me I'm beautiful all the time, makes me laugh every day, and keeps me grounded? What if I didn't have my two adorable children in my life? What if I couldn't hang out with my sisters and Dad at any given moment? What if I wasn't a member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints? What if any little piece of my life as it is was missing?What then? And that's when I realize that I'm more than happy to leave those other lives to the people they belong to. As for me....I'm happy right where I am!
(Sagie and me at the tulip festival)